A list

I'm a little emotional right now thinking about the long road that lies ahead of us living here in Texas, when all I want (SOO badly) is to be back in NY right now. In hopes of making myself feel better, I'm going to create a list of all the things that I'm thankful for to help remind me that life is not so bad after all, so here goes:

1) Having this little blessing with us in my tummy right now.

1a) Having sonograms and fetal dopplers to let us know our little blessing is still with us.

2) Having my sweet Delaney with me down here for a best friend.

3) A roof over my head.

4) My husband who supports me.

5) Family who is always there, no mater the distance.

6) The friends who have helped keep me company (and sane) via phone calls, internet, or in person down here - it means more to me than you probably know.

7) Food in our pantry and refrigerator.

8) The internet.

9) Cinnamon and sugar scented candles from Yankee Candle Co.

10) Zero humidity and 70 or below temps (on the very rare occasion here).

11) The occasional gorgeous butterflies that I see in our backyard from time to time.

12) Pennies on the ground.

13) Fresh basil.

14) Good neighbors.

15) Air conditioning.

In doing this list, I'm confirming my realization of how the biggest and most powerful thing that keeps me positive and looking forward to the next day that comes while living here is knowing that each day brings me closer and closer to meeting our little one. After losing our first pregnancy, I know how special and fragile this whole process of becoming a parent is and I don't know if I will ever be more thankful about anything else more than I am about the thought of bringing a child of our own into the world. It truly is a miracle no matter where we are whether we're in Texas or New York or any other place, I know we have been blessed and that is an incredible thing to be thankful for even on the darkest days.